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Triggers

The last two weeks have been tough. I have had my physical and mental health challenged in a way that I was forced to get off my ass and realize that a pity party was not going to accomplish anything. I had to take action in a way that would force me to get better, no matter how hard it was.

Since May I have been experiencing symptoms that make it difficult to breathe after dinner. I finally broke down and went to the doctor only to be told that it could be one of two things and it would require lab work and an ultrasound done to figure it out. Unfortunately, my health insurance is crap so it would be costly to get them done. I chose the world wide web route and found that there are natural methods proven to be successful in eliminating what I might have. One of these methods is eating a low fat diet. It can only make me healthier so it was an easy choice. Other methods involved drinking apple cider vinegar (GAG) and doing a cleanse. The more research I did, the effective I read that apple cider vinegar is. So I am began choking down ¼ cup of the nastiness down a day. As for the cleanse, it was a 20 hour cycle of eating nothing and drinking the most god awful liquids I wouldn’t wish on anybody. Hopefully all of these things will put me in the right direction and on the road to recovery.

My mental health was a little bit trickier. With physical health, logic can be applied without question. Mental health and emotions make every choice a grey one. Getting out of my own head is something I struggle with daily. So when it came to light that somebody in my life has made me enemy one, negative emotions threatened to overtake me. This person has said and done stuff targeting my family and I with such hatred that I am left feeling hurt, confused, and devastated. I wanted to know why. I am not perfect. I go between right and wrong, just like anybody else. I make mistakes. But to be on the receiving end of such viciousness is debilitating. I cried and tried to make sense of the situation. This has been going on for a good 10 years and trying to figure out what I have done wrong has left me up a lot of nights.

I have been angry and sad trying to work through this. And the only thing I can come up with is: IT’S NOT ABOUT ME. This person’s actions have no goodwill behind them. My family and I 100% don’t deserve it. This is a person that clearly only wishes to cause drama and I don’t want any part of it. It’s hard times like these that make me want to stay in my house and only interact with Curls, Red, and my hubby. My faith in people is lessened. But I do know it will get better. It’s just a matter of being patient.

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Posted in Pop Culture

Movie Trailer Monday: Romeo and Juliet

In junior high I remember watching Franco Zeffirelli’s version of Romeo and Juliet. It starred the beautiful Olivia Hussey and Leonard Whiting. It was dreamy and romantic with a haunting soundtrack. Then Baz Luhrmann put his stamp on the classic love story in 1996. A baby faced Leonardo DiCaprio and Claire Danes were the stars and the film was in your face with it’s fast pace and over the top visuals.

The new Romeo and Juliet stars Hailee Steinfeld (True Grit) and Douglas Booth. It has also has Paul Giamatti, Damian Lewis, and Ed Westwick in the cast. The trailer made my heart jump with excitement. I fell in love with this story when I was a teen and I am always excited to see new versions of this Shakespeare tale. Here is the trailer:

Pay the overpriced ticket or park your butt on the couch and wait for the Blu-ray?: As much as I want to pay the overpriced ticket, I can’t see my husband watching this in a theater. So I will be waiting for the Blu-ray.

Have a great week!

Posted in Pop Culture

Oh Sharknado, How You Slay Me

It’s been almost two weeks since Syfy’s Sharknado took Twitter by storm. And it took me until this past Saturday to get my husband to watch it. Husband watching it = falling asleep on couch next to me as soon as the opening credits start to roll. I was so very, very excited to watch this over the top B movie that has become an internet phenomenon. It’s sequel has already been ordered. Wil Wheaton and his wife Anne tweeted the premiere and it made me giddy with geek love.

A little history: I love a good B movie. They have bad acting to the Nth degree, ooze cheese, scantily clad women, and if you’re really lucky, you can practically see the green screen. Favorites from my childhood include Beastmaster, Swamp Thing, and Clash of the Titans. All of them had camp, boobs, and bad acting.

Sharknado has all the elements. It opens on the beach, Baywatch style. Ian Ziering (who actually had concerns about holes in the script before taking the role) and Tara Reid act with emotion that is more Lifetime movie of the week rather than a low budget monster movie. The abundance of sharks wreaking havoc appear to be modeled after the Jaws that jumps out at you during a Universal Studios tour. Where these sharks land throughout the movie provide some of the biggest unintentional laughs (through the bar window, through the roof of a car, on top of John Heard). Corn syrup blood flows while you while you listen to celery being crunched by the foley artists so we can hear the body parts being chomped on. There is a poor man’s Meadow Soprano look alike who would be better served in a Quentin Tarantino/Robert Rodriguez grindhouse feature (flowing hair, big guns, big boobs, etc.) And you WILL hear, “We’re going to need a bigger chopper” towards the end.

I did laugh out loud, but not as much as I thought I would. Sharknado is unlike anything I have ever seen before. I wasn’t a huge fan. But I can say that it had one of the best, most outrageous endings of any movie I have seen in a long time. I clapped in glee while my now awake husband just shook his head in disbelief. That alone made it worth the watch.

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Movie Trailer Monday: Catching Fire (AGAIN, you say? Yes, again. Now shoosh)

So many good things went on at Comic Con this past weekend. Batman and Superman in a movie together? Yes, please. Avengers 2: Age of Ultron. Nerd HQ. For the record, I wasn’t at Comic Con (I don’t want to talk about it).  Endless new footage from upcoming movies were screened for fan boys and fan girls alike.

Which brings me to today’s trailer. The sequel to Hunger Games, Catching Fire, did a panel in Hall H at SDCC and cast members Jennifer Lawrence, Josh Hutcherson, Lenny Kravitz, and others were all there. Director Francis Lawrence premiered a new trailer (as if I wasn’t already counting down the days to their November release).

Here is the new trailer. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did (which is probably not possible). Have a good week!

 

Pay the overpriced ticket or park your butt on the couch and wait for the Blu-ray?: Pay the overpriced ticket!

Here is the original trailer if you didn’t see it when I posted it in April.

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Why I’m sad Cory Monteith is gone

Ever since I was young I have been fascinated by celebrities. I am a pop culture junkie. Getting lost in television shows and movies has and always will be my main means of escape. The actors and actresses on the screen are like family to me, even though I am no Nurse Betty.  

Then there is Glee. I distinctly remember watching the premiere episode of Glee, right after the seaon finale of American Idol in May of 2009. In a split second I fell in love with Rachel, Finn, Kurt, Mr. Schu, and Mercedes. My heart sang when they sang “Don’t Stop Believin’”. And I may have thrown a temper tantrum when I discovered that I would have to wait until the following fall for another episode.

I love all the music of Glee and the relationships the characters have with one another. But I most identified with their school status. The members of New Directions are bullied on a daily basis for whatever reason (singing, being gay, just for the hell of it). Since I am still dealing with being bullied as a child I could relate to this group of misfits. I wish that Glee had been on when I was a teenager so I could have felt less alone.

Then there was Finn, played by Cory Monteith. He was not the best singer or dancer in New Directions. Nonetheless, he was always their leader with his understated strength and lovability. He was the heart of Glee, even after he graduated from McKinley and became Mr. Schuester’s right hand man.

I do not pretend to have known the person Cory Monteith and what his struggles were. But I do feel I got to know a small portion of his personality within Finn. And for that reason alone, I will miss him. Glee and the world will not be the same without him.

Cory Monteith, courtesy of http://deshommesetdeschatons.tumblr.com/

 

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Movie Trailer Monday: My Split Personality Rears It’s Ugly Head

I am SUPER excited about two movies this week and they couldn’t be more different. One is going to be ultra violent and filled with darkness. The other one made me grin so much during the trailer that my face was hurting when it was over.

First up is Spike Lee’s Oldboy. It is the remake of Chan-wook Park’s 2003 twisted mystery by the same name. My husband and I saw the original not long after it came out and I have never been able to get it out of my head. It is an amazing film that turned everything I had seen up until then on it’s head. It is the story of a man who is kidnapped and imprisoned for 15 years. After he is released he is to find his captor. The remake stars Josh Brolin, Samuel Jackson, and Elizabeth Olsen (yes, sister to the twins). The trailer promises a lot of savagery and style. Lee can be hit or miss for me but I loved his 2006 hit Inside Man so I look forward to being entertained. Here is the trailer: 

The second trailer is for Saving Mr. Banks. It is Disney’s annual holiday movie with surefire star Tom Hanks. It is the story of Walt Disney and how he convinced Mary Poppins author P.L. Travers to let him adapt the story into the now classic film. Director John Lee Hancock (The Blind Side) is at the helm with stars Emma Thompson, Paul Giamatti, Bradley Whitford and others alongside Hanks. I can’t decide what I am most excited about but the visuals of Disneyland back in the day makes me want to do cartwheels.

Here is the trailer: 

Have a great week!  

Posted in Good Things

Calming the Voices in My Head Part 1

With depression always looming over my head, I try to be conscious of what I can do to keep it at bay.  Health insurance policies these days are a total joke so I can’t afford to go to a therapist. And I don’t want to go on any medication such as Xanax because I know the side effects can sometimes outweigh the benefits ( I don’t even like to take Advil).

One thing I have been trying to do is eat better in addition to working out. Working out on a regular basis has been proven over and over that it helps with your mental health. But even with working out, eating better, and a trip to the doctor that showed I am in perfectly fine condition, I wanted to do more.

I do yoga on a weekly basis and one aspect of it is meditation. The close-your-eyes-while-sitting- cross-legged and saying “Oooooommmmm” meditation. I do this but not with the 100% focus that is required. My mind wanders every time and completely defeats what I am trying to accomplish.

To make a long story even longer, I have decided to try Transcendental Meditation. My first stop was their website. They define Transcendental Meditation as “a natural, effortless technique practiced 15-20 minutes twice daily while sitting comfortably.” They have the token celebrities endorsing the method (Jerry Seinfeld, Ellen Degeneres, Paul McCartney, Oprah). That all sounded good to me so I started reading the seven steps to learn. The first three steps are a FREE introductory talk, a FREE preparatory talk, and a FREE personal interview. And then you get to step four. This is where you meet with a certified TM teacher. At this meeting you will be required to pay the course fee. And the course fee is……$1500. Uuuuuhhhhh……you’ve lost me. If I can’t afford to go to a therapist, how in the world would I have $1500 to learn a breathing technique? My favorite part is below the seven steps they tell you you get “FREE” lifetime follow-up and support. Strike one for Transcendental Meditation.

Next up is Youtube. Youtube is a gold mine for the DIY person who wants to learn how to do ANYTHING.  Type in what you are looking for and Voila! But that Voila! Never came. Instead I sat through video after video telling me all the benefits of TM. Because of that overpriced fee of $1500 it appears how to do the actual technique has been banned from the internet. But here are some of the benefits:

  • Risks of cardiovascular diseases are reduced significantly (My Mom had heart surgery last year so this is a big one for me)

  • Muscle relaxation

  • Clearer thought

  • It encourages use of whole brain

After trying and trying to find out how to do TM, I came upon this article. And that was all I needed to know. I am going to find a mantra of my own choosing and sit in a quiet spot for 15-20 minutes to relax.  Stay tuned…..